keep you silent
Hi, hello
Need about 45 minutes of your time
Before we begin
Want to mix up a little spin
Realize something
Don’t have to answer
We get pretty personal
But the more said
The more can be done
So sit down, let down your guard
And begin
Need you
Want you
To get a clue of who I am
Understand me
Love me
To see where I stand
My eyes
My heart
My soul
Should you want to go
I will take you there
To a place where I live
Breath
And strive to survive
I try not to think
Loose myself with a blink
Of an eye
I cry
My emotion lie
In the midst
A mist of anger
Tell me
How to exhale
Dusk sets on my spirit
Heart is heavy
With whimsy lyric
I fall
Flimsy
Down to the sting of my soul
No longer whole
Disease taking over
Bursting inside
Not even trying to hide
Eating away
So nothing is left
Raw with flesh and blood
Slowly dieing
Feeling alone and lonely
Severing myself in two
Which half to choose
Out of the ashes
A walking dead
Corps left to be fed
Nothing but frailty
Stale to the world
They walk with life
A gift
All I see is death
Left with a stiff
Frail core
Not quite human they say
So know me
Show me
Where to go
How to slow
The hunger of love
And of acceptance
Kept confidential
Trust set aside
Lust to be denied
Dance upon my grave
No one will notice anyway
Because invisibility is my name
At least that’s the game
You play
Alienating
Discriminating
Justifying
While lying
Maintain your distance please
I have a life to cease
Itemizing
Criticizing
Me
Fuck you
You don’t know me
You don’t own me
Or my life
I live the way I choose
I give not to loose
My identity
Who I am
Not to be mistaken
Fade out of mind
I am out of time
So relinquish my soul
Magnify my secrets
So what if I have HIV
That is not who I am
What I am
Or why I am
Damn
It is only a fan
Of me
I am not a parasite
Do not like to be looked at
Neither a stat
For I am a human being
A fellow of humanity
Do not take this as insanity
For I am reputable
Not repulsive
I did not get myself here
I tried to stay clear
But it happened one day
And this is why I am this way
So choose to see
And live to free
Yourself
Leave your prejudices
Behind
And dine with me
Drink with me
Be gay with me
As in merry with me
Ask questions
Prick
Walk in my shoes for a change
The footsteps of a stranger
Do not desensitize
Feel with your heart
I am just at the start
Of me
No one listens
Everyone stiffens
When I come into the room
You don’t understand
People think they can attract it
With a touch on the hand
I detect fear within
There is no way I can win
Because I have already lost
Without even a word spoken
They take their token
And leave
So this is a glimpse
Of who I am
What I am
And why I am the way I am
Now what can you do
You have services too?
Listen honey this is just a bit
Don’t take off more than you can chew
Remember I want you to get a clue
Of who I am
What I am
And why I am
This way
So live your life
While I walk in strife
But one thing to remember
I am a member
Just like you
Trying to live
Just like you
So do not give
Your charity
But sympathize
And more importantly empathize
With me
Then you will see
My soul
Which I have bared whole
OK
Well thank you for your time
Thank you for sharing
Sorry I can do no caring
I’ll just write you up as client
Keep you silent
Have a nice day!
This way